The best part of 2013 and the worst was probably my surgery. It was ridiculously painful and I’m still not allowed to exercise but the best part hands down, was getting the biopsy results that the surgery was a success. So for the most part I’m cancer free. I repeat the procedure one more time this summer but the relief of not having to undergo radiation/chemo and still have the possibility to be a mother one day is unexplainable. I know we live in an anti-supernatural western society but I really do think miracles exist. From what doctors told me in november to now, I know in my heart they do and I’m thankful for that. I’m thankful I’ve been given a new opportunity to see things in a different perspective.
To update; Spring semester has started and in so many ways I can already feel it too. So many new seeds are sprouting in all aspects of my life, not just health wise but academically, socially and even within my own faith. I am happy to be where I am right now in life. In many ways I’m no where near to the girl I used to be but in so many ways I still am that girl. The best example I think I can give is that I am proud of my past, the things I’ve done and I’m in no way shape or form ashamed of it. I might still be cold but there’s true warmth inside of me that is easily drawn out thanks to the love from my friends, family and boyfriend Henry. Without them, I don’t think I could credit where I am today. They are a large contribution along with my past in creating the Rebecca that stands here today. My past life, friends, social structure, ideologies, ect created who I am today, and the present will continue to shape who I will be in the future. I’ve learned that that’s not something to regret, that’s something to be proud of.
Those who can not learn from their mistakes are condemned to repeat it.